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The Weekend From Hell...........
May. 9th, 2005 08:16 amMother's Day Weekend 2005: A weekend that will live in awful and painful infamy and anguish for as long as I live.......:'( :(
I just want to erase this weekend from ever happening,and it all started during the week,My Father started to plan a visit to My Grandmother's (Dad's Side of the family) House,I despise going there because first it's so godamn boring that the town where she lives is the land that time forgot,it's like 1955 or something it sucks,second I love my grandmother but we were never close,we're too distant,I care about her but it's like we're too diffrent people,third everytime I go over there the Shit hits the fan,there's always some bad gossip between family,always feuding and bickering with one another,saying shit about each other,then when we head home to hear my dad feeling sorry for leaving her all alone in that big house since she's been a widdow for almost 20 years now.....Plus I'm older now and I want to do something else,I had a chance to escape there and head home but I couldn't go thru it since it's Mother's day eve and I didn't want to uspet my mom so I decided to stay and suffer that hell,plus a lot of family members from my dad's side were there some good (which are in small numbers) and some bad (which are a lot of them and I can't stand personaly) and I ended up stone cold drunk (and I'm a guy that dosen't drink) and also depressed and in a level of pissed off never reached before.............I broke down many times during the day and night,I ended up calling my girlfriend 3 times and also my best friend I just needed someone to talk to and let it out,it was a long time ago since I've felt this depressed.....it was a sight not for the faint of heart......I thought I wasen't going to last the night,I was so fucked up that I wanted to kill myself.......I couldn't take another second being there it was so depresing it hurts so much to think about it......... but the worse was yet to come the next day.
We Finally leave Grandma's house (Thank the lord) and headed to another family activity but this time is my mom's side of the family where it's the same shit like dad's side,it was so dead there that I grabbed my mom's keys turned on the car and started to litsen to some music that at least calmed me down untill one of my older cousins did the most retarded thing ever and worst of all she did it in front of my mom,that truly pisssed me off,next time so help me I've never laid a hand on a woman and I'll never will because it's dissrespectful and wrong but IF she ever does that again in front of either my mom or my girlfriend (which that also sucked that I didn't see her on friday and she wasen't with me) I will slap her in front of her kids and her dumbass husband because with the mood I was this weekend.I was going to give a new meaning to the word "The Shit's Hit The fan"......
I went home (finally) and at least calmed down a bit,took a nice shower,helped my mom with the laundry,then went online to chat a bit I chatted with my best friend and also with a girl I met thru him who she truly loves him for him,that has made a massive sacrifice to start a new life in order to find happiness she did that FOR HIM! I mean what girl would do that for a guy what it pains me is that the guy is my best friend since childhood and I've been trying for the past 2 and a half weeks is to bring them together or at least try since they have so much in common,plus she really liked him a lot and believed that had a chance to be together and I so want them to hook up badly b/c I've been there b4,I've felt the pain of heartache,the pain of loneliness and I tried so hard,I tried my damnest and I failed miserably,he made the mistake and decided to go with another girl,and ended up breaking her heart and spirit,and eventualy giving up,I don't know how to face him but it's also my fault for getting involved,I tried my best to bring them together because I wanted them both to be happy and they deserved each other but it's hopeless now,eventualy he will realize the mistake he made if he ends up with his heart broken...Again,this isn't the first time this happened I've seen him in pain and it's not good,I love him like a brother and no matter what happens I'll still be his best friend even if He did the mistake that he has done.....I'm not mad at him,I can't be we've been friends for almost 11 years of our lives,but what he just did it does kinda makes me mad,but it makes me worse that I am now just talking about a person who I consider to be like a brother,makes me vomit even sayng that about him,all i can do if that girl who he decided to go for breaks his heart all I can say is "I'm sorry" and in a way say "I told you so" and if you're reading this entry just for curiosity,I'm sorry if this offended you in any way I didn't mean it to be that way but this is how I feel right now....all I can say is that good luck,I wish you the best with the girl you choosed to go with,I wish you nothing more than happiness....
end of entry.........I'm lucky to survive the weekend and I'm back,right now I need to be surrrounded my by friends and/or my girlfriend.....
I just want to erase this weekend from ever happening,and it all started during the week,My Father started to plan a visit to My Grandmother's (Dad's Side of the family) House,I despise going there because first it's so godamn boring that the town where she lives is the land that time forgot,it's like 1955 or something it sucks,second I love my grandmother but we were never close,we're too distant,I care about her but it's like we're too diffrent people,third everytime I go over there the Shit hits the fan,there's always some bad gossip between family,always feuding and bickering with one another,saying shit about each other,then when we head home to hear my dad feeling sorry for leaving her all alone in that big house since she's been a widdow for almost 20 years now.....Plus I'm older now and I want to do something else,I had a chance to escape there and head home but I couldn't go thru it since it's Mother's day eve and I didn't want to uspet my mom so I decided to stay and suffer that hell,plus a lot of family members from my dad's side were there some good (which are in small numbers) and some bad (which are a lot of them and I can't stand personaly) and I ended up stone cold drunk (and I'm a guy that dosen't drink) and also depressed and in a level of pissed off never reached before.............I broke down many times during the day and night,I ended up calling my girlfriend 3 times and also my best friend I just needed someone to talk to and let it out,it was a long time ago since I've felt this depressed.....it was a sight not for the faint of heart......I thought I wasen't going to last the night,I was so fucked up that I wanted to kill myself.......I couldn't take another second being there it was so depresing it hurts so much to think about it......... but the worse was yet to come the next day.
We Finally leave Grandma's house (Thank the lord) and headed to another family activity but this time is my mom's side of the family where it's the same shit like dad's side,it was so dead there that I grabbed my mom's keys turned on the car and started to litsen to some music that at least calmed me down untill one of my older cousins did the most retarded thing ever and worst of all she did it in front of my mom,that truly pisssed me off,next time so help me I've never laid a hand on a woman and I'll never will because it's dissrespectful and wrong but IF she ever does that again in front of either my mom or my girlfriend (which that also sucked that I didn't see her on friday and she wasen't with me) I will slap her in front of her kids and her dumbass husband because with the mood I was this weekend.I was going to give a new meaning to the word "The Shit's Hit The fan"......
I went home (finally) and at least calmed down a bit,took a nice shower,helped my mom with the laundry,then went online to chat a bit I chatted with my best friend and also with a girl I met thru him who she truly loves him for him,that has made a massive sacrifice to start a new life in order to find happiness she did that FOR HIM! I mean what girl would do that for a guy what it pains me is that the guy is my best friend since childhood and I've been trying for the past 2 and a half weeks is to bring them together or at least try since they have so much in common,plus she really liked him a lot and believed that had a chance to be together and I so want them to hook up badly b/c I've been there b4,I've felt the pain of heartache,the pain of loneliness and I tried so hard,I tried my damnest and I failed miserably,he made the mistake and decided to go with another girl,and ended up breaking her heart and spirit,and eventualy giving up,I don't know how to face him but it's also my fault for getting involved,I tried my best to bring them together because I wanted them both to be happy and they deserved each other but it's hopeless now,eventualy he will realize the mistake he made if he ends up with his heart broken...Again,this isn't the first time this happened I've seen him in pain and it's not good,I love him like a brother and no matter what happens I'll still be his best friend even if He did the mistake that he has done.....I'm not mad at him,I can't be we've been friends for almost 11 years of our lives,but what he just did it does kinda makes me mad,but it makes me worse that I am now just talking about a person who I consider to be like a brother,makes me vomit even sayng that about him,all i can do if that girl who he decided to go for breaks his heart all I can say is "I'm sorry" and in a way say "I told you so" and if you're reading this entry just for curiosity,I'm sorry if this offended you in any way I didn't mean it to be that way but this is how I feel right now....all I can say is that good luck,I wish you the best with the girl you choosed to go with,I wish you nothing more than happiness....
end of entry.........I'm lucky to survive the weekend and I'm back,right now I need to be surrrounded my by friends and/or my girlfriend.....
