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man I haven't wrote shit here in a long ass time so a lot has happened right?

Yes and No

-Still Single

-Watched a crapload of movies

-Finished Ghostbusters the game and it was awesome!

-WWE Smackdown/ECW live was awesome

-Still Medicated (got used to it who fucking knew)

-WWE RAW is funnier when you watch it with a group

-Lost a few pounds then gained a bit then lost again

but other than the random jibber jabber I do there are finally some good news:

I FOUND A FUCKING JOB AT LONG FUCKING LAST!!!!

(well at least thanks to Rehabilitacion Vocacional,those fuckers finally came thru for me and kept their promise)

Celebration times are finally here,biznatches!!!!!



(good luck at the 'E',Bryan and hope you don't get buried or stuck with a shitty gimmick)


oh and I started doing the DrakeoVlogs again but other than that things are finally turning around

so peace and keep on rawkin' my peeps thank you for always supporting me (you know who you are)

and to all my haters,the people that I thought that were my friends and decided to turn their backs on me and thought I was going to fail:



All you haters can kiss my geeky ass!!!!!! for ever doubting me and rooting for me to fail at everything

also this guy:



PUERTO RICO'S NEWEST HERO!!!

till then!

LATER GATERS!!

(I promise that the new D-Vlog will be posted)

-Terryman
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It's been around 2 months and a half since I've updated an entry here so here we go:


NOT A GODAMMED THING!!!!!


except watching the island going ape shit with the "economic crisis",the posible lay off of over 30,000 people,the never-ending wave of violence,sex crimes and now the swine flu epidemic sweeping the world literally!!!


IT'S A GREAT TIME TO BE ALIVE!!!!!!!!!!!


WHOOPIDI-FUCKING-DOO!!!!!!!!

*sighs*

I got nothing else to write about.....

The DrakeoVlogs have been on hiatus for almost 2 months now....

going to therapy....

bleh....I'm done

later gaters

-Terryman





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.......is a bit of overrated,don't you think

yeah I know I sound bitter but what can I say?

can't think of anything to do on V-day...

-Hang out with friends,get my mind of love?

-talk to that special person and be with her?

anything could happen...

I really miss being in love.... I think it was the best thing to ever happen to me in a long ass time or maybe ever <3

Nevermind my ramblings... ><

Later Gaters

-Terryman
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http://www.slashfilm.com/2008/12/10/first-look-the-cast-of-the-last-airbender/

First Dragonball is going to suck donkey nuts...

this is going to suck the donkey shaft while the other fondles the balls


Seriously,Hollywood...WHAT THE FUCK????


-Terryman
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first and foremost:

Happy Thanksgiving To each and every single one of you wherever you are...

Second of all:

If there was anyone who was offended by my last post,I sincerely apologize,some of you that either have called me or texted me or even myspaced me about it even sharing your experiences similar or different from mine,I truly appreciate it and thanks once again.

Things between my dad and myself are cool..at least for now,we talked about what happened last night earlier today before heading out to my uncle's place for a thanksgiving get together and I basically started shooting on him about my feelings about Ricardo on why I did what I did last night and of course he started to back peddle,trying to find ways to see if he could defend him like he always does,and he was floored -or pretended to be it in order for me to shut the fuck up about it- and was assuring me that he will talk to him about it(which he never does so why bother for him to even try,it will just start all over again)He needed to know...so I gave him what he needed to know and also to make him see that his "precious golden child" that he so Idolizes and worship is nothing more than a snake in the grass who's taken advantage of a great human being -despite having a shit load of faults- I still love him because he is my father.


but enough about that let's go to how was my thanksgiving,surprisingly it went very well,it was very low-key,not a lot of people cause most of them were either circling the island or couldn't make it,ect,I saw my cousin who also came from the states -but THANK GOD he's not like my half brother Ricardo- that I haven't seen him since Spring Break '06 where my family flew to Orlando,yeah we had our tiffs growing up but thankfully not at Ricardo's Level,we get along pretty well,just basically were catching up and just sharing stuff,listening to some tunes,he brought his laptop and watched some of Jeff Dunham's stand ups and other random vids on Youtube and even tried to dance the Souja Boy dance (LMAO! I seriously suck at it) for the first time in a long time I ACUTALLY enjoyed thanksgiving,I wish I could have had somebody with me to enjoy it with me,but still it was cool,we had some turkey,a bit of stuffing and that was it (I GOT SCREWED!! NO TATER SALAD!!! :( IT'S INHUMAN!!!) and for desert a piece of Tres Leches (IT FUCKING RULES!)

for those who have NEVER...EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVERRRRRRRRRRRR
Experience it or don't know what it is here it be:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tres_leches

(THANK YOU WIKIPEDIA!)

anyway,I had a good thanksgiving and hope you had one too

now to always say what I'm thankful for:

-Family and Friends:

You know who you are I love each and every single one of you that have been there for me and I've been there for you guys as well,if I forgot some people,please don't feel left out I still love you too)

-Vocational Rehabilitation:

Despite the scam they tried to pull with me,they have totally redeemed themselves with me and are helping me non-stop with my Job Problem,and I'm eternally grateful that they are doing so,and they have been very impressed with my progress so far that maybe when '09 starts,I'll be working :)

-God/Jesus/Buddha/Allah/Optimus Prime:

However you want to call him/her/it despite your religious beliefs(I ain't judging,just don't go overboard with it and try to shove it down my or anyone else's throats,except Scientology..GO FUCK YOURSELVES! even if some of our favorite celebrities -mostly them- and or people are still we love them for being themselves as people..)we always have to give thanks to that Omnipotent Entity that surrounds us all.

Enjoy that turkey and if you have some 'Tater Salad...SHARE THE WEALTH! :D

Later Gaters

-Terryman
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*Sighs*

(LONG POST COMING DOWN)

That's what I kept saying inside my head,when I confronted my dad about what just happened earlier tonight...


-I've probably mentioned this plenty of times about my older brother(the asshole)and how my dad would put him over as "the shit" and stuff,well he's actually here in Puerto Rico for a visit,and knowing his track record here especially with me and how he's fucking treated me growing up,I've reached a point that I'm done with dealing with him,to be perfectly blunt -as much as it will hurt my dad and I would never hurt him- I don't want to be around him,or even talk to him...eventually I will have to see him face to face as much as I hate his fucking guts and existence,if I would tell you all the shit he's really done to me growing up and my dad being fucking blind and dumb he let him get away with it,I'd be posting until the beginning of '09 but I won't.

-Ever since before he was even coming over here to spend thanksgiving here,it's all been one shit storm of stress over not only my mom but most of the family,just fucking drama that's unnecessary,and all I've been trying to do is to simply avoid trouble,avoid a confrontation that I might snap,and just release all that pent up rage and fucking wail on him and spit on his face,to make it worse doing that in front of his 5 Year Old Daughter,she's not responsible for all the emotional damage and strain that He caused me,my mom and even sometimes my dad,that's why I did what I did,to mostly avoid doing that.What I basically did was I was out most of the day I was tired because I woke up very early in the morning to meet up with my life coach(as part of the whole Job Placement program I'm in currently) at El Canton Mall in Bayamon (Please Don't Ask me why there) he did what he always does,talk to me,ask some random questions and wrote my answers down on his wordbook,We were mostly done with the meeting around 11:30am to noon,took the train home to catch some sleep at least and watch Tropic Thunder again on DVD,then My dad was saying that he was coming over again,he already was here yesterday and I really didn't want to deal with him,so I went out to San Pa of all places to just get away and stayed there for a couple of hours until they've left,so around 5ish to 6pm I literally walk home from San Patricio to my house,I stopped by the Ben & Jerry's close to the train station to rest and just in case they were still there and just wait until he left,so I go home and I don't see his rented car,so I figure he was there and left,and I was really tired and just depressed for no reason and I didn't want to add fuel to the fire,then I find out that He was actually on his way over to the house and I wanted to fucking split,but it was already 8pm so I had 2 choices:

a)Deal with his ass,doing my damnedest not to snap and fucking go off on him in front of his wife who's one brick short of a whole load,the lights are on but there's nobody home,you know what I mean,his cocked-eyed mother in law who's really a pain in the ass to deal with and my 5 year old niece who I adore,one of the actual good things I have to admit he's done well and also I don't want her to see her uncle bitch slap her daddy in front of her eyes and also at such a young age.

b)Just go to my room,lock the door and stay there until they leave,therefore avoiding confrontation and adding even more fuel to the fire and causing a scene to make himself look like a victim in dad's eyes (LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES).

-Yes I chose B and as much as it hurt my dad mostly and hurt me a bit I stood by it and still stand by it,if my older brother would have been raised by my mom,growing up then we wouldn't be like this,we could have actually gotten along,and I would have been glad to see him,he would have been a great person to be around but it would have really been nice and also it would make my relationship with my dad even tighter and much better than it is now,Please Don't get me wrong,I'm very fortunate to have a father that does care and he's been awesome to me but he sometimes does things that make you go "dammit" but still I love him for it..but whenever he starts praising my "brother" like he's the fucking Dali Llama it sickens me,not because I'm jealous,I'm not really or ever been jealous of him,but the way he portrays him like he's the fucking shit,the measuring stick of what a son is..when he's really an asshole who's waiting for my dad to kick the bucket and take everything and keep them for himself..That's why I have a very personal beef with him,because he takes advantage of my dad and my dad lets him...and he's above all of us,we mean nothing to him..


-I stayed in my room most of the evening,my dad got plastered and when they left I came out of the room and headed to the kitchen to help out my mom wash the dishes,and there was my dad right there,just completely hammered and pissed at me because of what I did and that I should be ashamed of my self for not even saying hello to him,that he came all the way from the states to see "us" and I was being a complete disrespectful asshole for not having the courtesy of even saying a word to him.(yes in a way despite all the booze talking it made sense but knowing myself,I did what felt right and also I really wasn't feeling well and I wanted to rest,what really pissed me off he was insisting that I MUST SEE HIM AND SAY HELLO!)a part of me felt bad and really sorry about my action but the other part was like "FUCK IT! YOU DID THE RIGHT THING,YOU MANNED UP AND YOU BASICALLY ARE TELLING YOUR DAD THAT YOU'RE NOT TAKING ANY MORE OF HIS SHIT ABOUT RICARDO ANYMORE!" so it was 50/50 thing I ended up hurting my dad's feelings and also standing up to him for his constant praising of Ricardo as the "Golden Child".

First Born my ass! yes he is first born but also a Grade A Douchebag!

Criticize me if you want,what's done is done...if I get punished and shunned by my own dad for what I did,then so be it.

if he would only know all the shit I've been put up and went thru because of that motherfucker....then he would understand why I was so cold to him...

if he can handle the truth,then I'll say why because this has been going on for far too long,and it's time that he opened his eyes and see the truth.

*exhales*

at least I got some of it out of my system,I still have to deal with Ricardo ugh!

anyway,I'm out,happy thanksgiving

-Terryman
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***The Following contains language not suitable for some people,if you are offended by this DON'T READ!***

Just 24 Hours removed and I still can't believe it that it happened:





Finally a Brother in the White House...LET US FUCKING REJOICE :D

FUCK ALL THE RACIST FUCKS AND NAYSAYERS THAT EVER SAID "THAT FUCKING NIGGER IS GOING TO THE WHITE HOUSE? THAT NIGGER???"

well now he is the HNIC(HEAD NIGGA IN CHARGE!) OF THE FREE WORLD!


-At least something good came out of this Election,it's kinda surprising that I've kept my mouth shut like some people during this time until yesterday well most of last year and this year about politics both in Puerto Rico and in the US,but I knew the outcome in the Puerto Rican Electoral Race since March 9,2008.... I knew that the PNP were going to win by a landslide by any means necessary,Pedro Rosello,the former governor that won the election both in 1992 and again in 1996,then went to become a candidate again in 2004 and lost but still kept making contreversy even after stepping out from politics,and decided to run again this year but there was a primary and lost to Luis Fortuño who eventually did became the governor yesterday,he lost the primary to Fortuño easily I might add,and Rosello despite that many of his followers are complete brainless fanatics and committed blasphemy claiming that he was the messiah,he's not the type to give up THAT easy,so I knew that something was definitely up,to clear up I'm a Democrat mostly by family and I have friends that are either with the PPD,PNP,PIP and I still consider them friends,comrades and brothers despite our political views and differences and Rosello has always been seen like the fucking devil and also that he stole Millions and Millions of Dollars from Governmental Funds and basically everything and he was never proven for that because most of the judges and other authoritative figures were appointed by him and also bribed them and Basicaly driving the island to a state of Economic Crisis and also Unemployment Rate that to this day we're still recovering from..or so they say that there's a recession but I still see people going to stores and purchasing items....

Funny Ain't it,We're in "Economic Crisis" and everything's back to normal...

Don't ask me really,I call it as I see it..

-Fast Forward to this year,Rosello loses the Primaries and lays low for months until around July (which is basically the home stretch in any electoral year here in PR) and re-appears with the help of a "Write-In" movement to place him as a candidate for Governor again(HAVE THOSE PEOPLE LEARNED NOTHING FROM HIS 2 TERMS??,ARE THAT DAMMED BRAIN DEAD???) and almost made it but eventually failed at least for now until he hatches up another scheme to get back in Power.

so to sum up,Fortuño won,to be honest I wasen't suprized,I knew it from the start that it was going to happen,but some people didn't believe me and also Anibal -though he was critizied and basicaly betrayed by most of his peers and also the legislation of this island did not let him do his job,ending up fucking him over,and most of the people here in the island failed epicly to see that- did his damndest so I'll give him some props for his effort.

The IVU wasen't partialy his fault but then again he gets blamed for everything..He tried his best but failed..


Now on to the presidental race..not a lot to say about it but I'm just glad that Obama won,He finally won me over like the last month or so of this race...

anyway enough of politics,THANK GOD THAT IT'S OVER!

I'm glad that it's all over now

take care

and yeah

FUCK YEAH OBAMA!!!

-Terryman
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*sighs* here we go with another "Weekend Of Thunder" but it really started between Wednesday till yesterday:

-Wednesday:

-As most of you know,Hurricane Season is always crappy to many people and also where people go ape shit in getting the supplies and being ready in case the shit gets heavy or there's always a group of idiots or one lone idiot that ruins it for everybody by being that: AN IDIOT!.What I hate most of all of Hurricane Season besides the fucking thing coming down on the island and shoving us to the Dark Ages for a period of time because of the devastation,and also most people lose everything they hold dear with the hurricane's path is how my dad reacts to the whole thing BEFORE THE FUCKING THING HITS THE ISLAND! therefore driving me and my mom insane with his "OH SWEET JESUS THAT THING IS COMING AND WE'RE GONNA DIE!!" ape shit mode!,I tried to calm him down but sadly that never works,nothing works trying to help my dad be calm,also that I had like an award ceremony for those that participated in the Mentor Program from that Friday I worked on the TV Station,it got canceled and re-scheduled for next week,so since the thing was canceled I stayed home and I was going to catch on my sleep...FUCKING WRONG I had to help my dad -in his ape-shit mode- literally remove part of the house because he was fucking scared that everything would fly out of control and smash everything(valid point but most of the stuff was not going to fly out plus our house is made of cement,it's not an atomic bomb,it's a hurricane,we've survived plenty of hurricanes and our house still stands)but it would smash his precious MGB car (one of the many sources of the constant stress between the family) so we basically tied up everything and placed most of the stuff from the garage inside the house,oh but the Tragicomedy doesn't end there..we ended up fixing a window that could have been fixed in a later time because there was no rush but once dad is in Panic Mode it had to be done,we were glued to the TV -mostly my dad still in panic mode- to see the news bulletins about Hurricane Omar (first it was a tropical storm and quickly upgraded into a Category 1 Hurricane and its path was half of the Island including Vieques and Culebra) and we were just a mere 3 Weeks removed from a big ass Tropical Storm that caused devastation in some parts of the island by causing landslides,floods,countless of homes lost because of them,5 people died during that storm,we were OK but we were mostly thinking about those people that lost everything in that storm and they were going thru another one.

-And after all that,it turned out that the hurricane missed the island completely but still hit in some parts of it and rained heavily thru out the rest of the night and the next day.

-Also that before Omar was going to "Hit" PR,I got my Ipod back from Florida and fixed so it works now,so at least I could have my tunes and some vids to pass the time while the Hurricane hit the island but enough about that,the most important thing is that I was suprized that most of us actually prepared themselves in case the real shit was going to go down and it made me proud that we accomplished a little order in that,but then there was other people going nuts getting water and flashlights and canned goods,like monkeys flinging shit to each other while hopped on Red Bull...

"Barely Out Of the Fucking Jungle!"

-Also during that madness,I went back to the Shrink's Office after not being there for 3 years because most importantly I needed some documents that he had to fill up in order for Vocational Rehabilitation to help me find a job,The shrink insisted to see me,I had time and also I didn't want to go back home early while my dad was in his Panic Mode while Big Bad Omar was going to pimp slap the island like it owes it money in a few hours so sure why not and also the quicker he fills up those papers,the sooner I can give them to VR and they can help me finally find a job,so he analyzed me and basically I told him the truth in why I stopped going to his office and what was I up to since the last time I saw him 3 years ago while he filled up the papers,he did filled up the papers and I went to Subway and ate there then headed home where dad was still in his mood,then the news hit that the hurricane went away from PR.

And we were safe once again..
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Thursday:

-Things got back to normal immediately,but still it was raining and cloudy,my dad woke me up -still in his panic mode but slowly shutting down but still was getting too pushy- to put everything back to normal,untie the heavy stuff and put everything back to where it was,while still in that he was spazing out and after I finished doing most of the work,I rested a bit and napped a bit then he woke me up again and was still spazing and asking me what was I going to do today,we went to the VR building to hand deliver the papers,while he waited in the car,I went ahead and gave the papers to my councilor and my dad was being very impatient and really pissing me off because he was being this way because he wanted to go out and get hammered I basically shut him up by saying "I know you want to get hammered but delivering these papers are MUCH more important than you getting drunk plus we got a big day tomorrow so no heavy drinking" (when will I fucking learn that saying it won't work because he'll do it anyway,someday I'll explain you guys on why me and my dad don't have that good father/son relationship someday,I don't hate him,I love him but it's some of the things he does that doesn't draw us together like it should and about the 'Big Day' that's coming up soon) so he dropped me off on the train station and headed to the Frat House to get hammered,and I stayed there waiting for the bus to come and also I haven't ate the rest of the day,went to plaza,stayed a bit,met up with Diego then left our separate ways I walked on foot heading to the train station,went home and that was it,my dad came later,extremely hammered...

*sighs* Story of my fucking life,I really got to move out of the house or at least have a job to keep me occupied.
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Friday(a.k.a The Big Day):

-Why the big day you ask.because it was the day that my newborn baby niece arrived.She was originaly going to be born today but the doctor seeing my sister in law decided that the c-section should be done before that,so instead of being born on the 20th like it was supposed to be,my niece was born on the 17th,we all went to the hospital and were there to give them support,it took the hospital arround 12 to 16 hours to give my sister the c-section because there was only one room to do so,emergencies started to pour in like crazy,Estela Monireh(that is my niece's name and I will call her 'Moni' for short)there was a small scare but everything turned out fine
thank god,we all saw her spent the rest of the night there.

-I called and texted everyone to tell them about the good news,it was a good day indeed :)

(thanks to the many of you that sent their prayers about my niece,I totally appreciate it ;) much love to you all)

(picutres will be posted soon)

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Saturday:

-I was getting ready for the RAW House Show,before heading to the choliseo,I spent the rest of the day at the hospital checking up on my sister in law and the newborn baby,spent some time there,called up Juanqui to meet me at the hospital to eat well before heading to the choli,because he was rushed with many things he left his ticket back at his place (lucky for him that he was staying over this weekend at his folks' apartment and left it there and on the train he could get there quickly) so he went back to the train to get the ticket,I stayed at the hospital a bit more but I couldn't wait for him much longer since it was getting dark and I had to hurry to the choli,so I took the train to the choliseo and went to the line,he arrived in the nick of time when the gates opened,went to the show,met up with a shitload of people,I almost got trampled by the sudden rush of people going to ringside to the guardrails to get pics of Batista and Rey Mysterio and almost elbowed poor Juanqui in the face because of the frenzy,Met up with some old friends,I saw my godmother's husband with his kids at the show,snagged some awesome shirts(Santino Shirt for the EPIC WIN!)met up with new people,saw some young CM Punk fans,even one decked out with the shirt and the gloves and named him "PUNKITO!" if he was an orphan I'd totally adopt him,so adorable and also makes me sure that there's still hope for fans to appreciate this sport/spectacle.

-Sadly this time I didn't go to the hotel because I had no ride for me and Juanqui to go there and take pics with the wrestlers,oh well next time I will go to the hotel and HOPEFULLY have a fucking car by then,so we took the last train of the night home and that was pretty much saturday,I was dead tired because of the hectic week I had.The important thing I had fun with one of my best friends in the universe,a guy I'm proud to call my almost brother as well as the many friends that have been there with me thru thick and thin :) Next Time I hope the group gets bigger to go to the shows.
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Sunday:

-Not much happened I slept most of the day,washed some clothes and headed to the Hospital again to be with everybody but By the time I arrived everyone left so there was just me in the room with my sister-in-law,the baby and my brother,I stayed a but until I called my folks and they were on their way out of the hospital to go home,I hitched a ride with them,also my nephew was with us since he had an appointment the next day and was extremely hyper and a bit difficult to handle(mostly is because of lack of discipline but then again he's like that sometimes whenever they bring him over to spend the night at home).

That's pretty much what has been my Weekend Of Thunder (Part Deux) and hope that there's no more Weekend Of Thunder..for now :P

take care my peeps

Later Gaters

-Terryman
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Man,I'm so pumped but nervous at the same time because I don't want to fuck up such an opportunity:

-For Months,since I lost my job at Nathan's because of schedule conflict and mostly because of Jury Selection,I've been busting my nuts off and hunting for a job at something,I'll admit I slacked off a bit but most of the time was sending resumes left and right,checking the wanted ads,going for interviews,even begging for an opportunity,I lost and gained hope many times,I was starting to feel desperate,mostly because I wanted somebody to give me a chance to work and mostly get out of the house more often,but that is another post for another occasion.


-Vocational Rehabilitation has finally been doing its job for a bit now with me since my so called "debt" was paid,realizing that they were the ones that fucked up and paid the debt in full and also that One person fought for me till the end,Mr. Luis Claudio Alamo,I owe that man everything and I am willing to take a bullet for him because he fought for me and people with the same situations and/or worse,because he truly cares for his job,he could have been fired for it but he wasn't and I owe that man everything,Another person that I owe everything as well and works there is a woman by the name of Ivette Ramos (I think that is her last name I might be wrong) she handles the Job Placement program there and she was also instrumental in helping me become part of the Program they have for people with physical and mental disabilities to get employment(I qualified for this program for my ADD,and also I say this to get the facts straight and for those that Don't Know me or people like me at all,they want to do is start shit for no reason and probably think that I'm cheating the government or something when it's completely false and also if it wasn't for Vocational Rehabilitation I couldn't have paid for College Despite the shit I went thru with them).She noticed that I have the initiative and that I really want to work,the only thing I kept saying to her -and this is true- while completely shaking uncontrollably and shedding tears cause she could see my desperation that all I am asking is for one chance,a chance to prove that I'm capable of working and do my damnedest to keep that job.

(for a complete review about what Vocational Rehabilitation check this entry explaining the meaning and the benefits and also I can't believe it's almost One Year Old this entry)

http://terryman.livejournal.com/2007/10/25/

as for the Job Placement program is they call many places in the area or community and to help out post grads that are qualified for the Vocational Rehabilitation to get you jobs in your living area anywhere and will have like a coach of some sorts accompany them if they get the job and simply monitor your progress in the workforce and while you slowly get the hang of it they will back off but still stop by from time to time to check your progress.Sounds easy to some but obviously you'll be working but you'll have like a boost of some sorts with that but it's great that VR has a program like that to help out people with learning or psychical disabilities to obtain jobs,especially times like these where anyone able or disabled can't find jobs anywhere and basically are either flocking to job agencies to find work,if they do find it,the pay is horrendous and not enough to feed their families and pay debts,others take 2 or 3 or even 4 jobs at the time,just enough to get by or they migrate to the states in other to find work there and send money to their families that were left behind there or Join the Military and won't get to see that money until their tour is over or in case of death,ect..

(If I am completely wrong in some points or in everything please feel free to correct me,I'm human and I make mistakes,I never and will ever claim to be Perfect)

-Other than that,I should be in bed now,but I really can't sleep I got a lot going thru my mind,I really hope I do well,I've begun another soul search inside me,I'm dying to be the old me again,and by that I mean the person who was always happy all the time,and never got depressed again,if I did it was very short lived and went back to be happy again,God how I long to be like that again and finally have closure and put this beast inside me and beat it into submission,not letting take over me,I hate being miserable all the time and even hide it from the people that I care about,I miss being happy all the time and say to any fear that I have "FUCK YOU! I'm Alright cause I'm happy!"

*sighs* Glad I got most of it out of my system,anyway I'm off to sleep,I got a big day ahead of me in the morning,Just a few more days left for the RAW House Show in Puerto Rico on Saturday October 18th,if RAW wouldn't have come I would have love to gone to that REO Speedwagon/Kansas concert..anyway to my friends,family,the people that I love the most (you know who you are) Thank you for everything,and for slowly regaining my hope in everything,I love you for it and hope to make you proud.

PEACE,KEEP ON ROCKIN',LATER GATERS!!

-Terryman
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Spin the wheel,Raggedy Man,Here We Go:

-Nothing to report,really,still the same,still in and out on mood swings...I fucking hate being moody,I'm just not going to say anything,it's still the same shit going on as the last time...

-I mostly hang out with friends,at least that helps me distract a lot of my personal shit,just chill with friends and slowly forget the troubles in our lives as most of us are pretty much in the same boat(not all but some).

-Kenshiro and I are talking and made peace with each other and are once again friends,I'm not gonna say all that happened because somethings are just not to post about on online journals or vlogs or anything what so ever,it was disagreement that we had with each other and stopped talking to each other for 2 months,that's all I'm gonna say and we were both man enough to not "Shoot" at each other in our respective LJs or other form of Blogging and kept the matter to ourselves until we met up and talked about it and forgave each other and moved on.To be very honest and sincere I'm really glad we made up,we've been friends for almost 10 years now and I'm also glad to call him my friend and almost brother...,also we reunited with wheelsofsteel,the 3 boys from SanPa were together again...it felt good.

so at least there are some good news this time around,the last Update post was very depressing so I'm glad that this update there's more good stuff to post.

-Been hitting the PS2 again and had a Chance to Play Soul Calibur 4 on PS3 at JoJo's House on Saturday,and it's pretty good to play,also we played some Old School Bushido Blade 2 and then Warhawk (the PS3 version) and had a good time,I can't wait for the new Ghostbusters game coming up soon,I already reserved my copy:

Ghostbuster Tribute

"BUSTIN' MAKES ME FEEL GOOD!"

a lil tribute there made by me!

-Also been honing my Photoshop and Illustrator skills,so I can stay sharp,I still need to re-learn some stuff but I'll google some tutorial sites for that :)

-I'd like to take this time to wish Happy B-day to Yans(b3heli7que3n) her B-day is on Friday and on Saturday is Daka's(secretasiant) B-day so if you're reading this Happy B-day to you all,especialy Daka ;) <3

-Also the celebration begins on thursday as the last remaining peeps of the Illuminati in Atlantic College graduates,officialy closing the chapter of the group in the university but Our Legacy Will LIVE ON ad the most morose group of motherfuckers in the land and WE WERE KINGS ALL AND STILL ARE!!!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!

-The DrakeoVlogs are back in motion for those who haven't seen them pop on by to my Youtube channel and check em at:

youtube.com/calicoboricua83

Leave me some feedback,let me know

anyway Laters and Keep On Rockin'

-Terryman
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I've had this livejournal for 4 years now....

I've written and posted a shitload of stuff so here we go:

-Got an E-mail from a small buissness here on the island looking for graphic artists (hey I know but then again I got to find a job at something and mostly was because my dad was all up in my ass to send them an E-mail) and they seemed to be interested since they got my resume like a month and a half ago? anyway at least I got some Feedback and that's what matters and wanted me to send them some samples of my work,I did and so far no response so let's hope I get at least an e-mail with a "Interview Time and Date" At Least...so hope hope!.

-Been going to the movies a lot lately,and so far this year hasn't been a disappointment in films except for "The Strangers" and "10,000 B.C" so it's been pretty good in the box office for now,at least so much better than last year (with the exception of 300,Transformers and a few good movies) Can't wait for Hellboy 2 and Dark Knight(except we'll have to wait another week here in PR) I really want to check out "Step Brothers" (Will Farrell and John C Reily FOR THE COMEDIC EPIC WIN!).

-Just when WWE couldn't suck anymore that it is now,it still does now PLEASE don't get me wrong I love the Fact and the idea that CM Punk is The World Champion,but since there are already and allegedly talks that his title reign will be short lived,He should have been given a big push a long time ago and now that it's finally happened,WWE dosen't want to take a chance at somebody that isn't John Cena or Batista...that's WWE for ya..plus probably the whole Punk Winning The Title was a desperate ruse to get raitings but most importantly to shut the internet smarks up.

-TNA is still a wrestling disappointment (there's a shocker) horrible booking,not pushing great talent and also shitting on,also The World X Cup so far has been disappointing because they are giving the international talent they are bringing not enough time to showcase them,they have great wrestlers like Milano Collection AT,Rey Buccanero and a few to name a few and giving them less time,a 2 minute match isn't enough...if you're going to do an Invitational Tournament featuring talent from Japan,Mexico,UK and other parts of the Globe then Dedicate the 2 hour show with that instead of crappy storylines and some talent that are overated,I don't care about Kurt Angle anymore or his wife,Give Me Wrestling! and also Samoa Joe SHOULD HAVE BEEN THE CHAMP BEFORE THE NWA SPLIT FROM TNA OR AT LEAST START HIM AS THE FIRST TNA WORLD CHAMP! and also the feud with Kurt Angle would have been Epic if they build it the right way instead of rushing it too early so with that I'm going over to check the indy scene(ROH,CHIKARA,PWG ect.),that way at least I can see some great future prospects develop into the future of the sport before they go to WWE or TNA and get held back and watered down...

-Speaking of Indy Wrestling I finally received all 3 nights of CHIKARA's King Of Trios,it was the most Epic Tournament I've ever since since WCW Slamboree 96! IT JUST REEKS OF EPIC AWESOMENESS!!

-Still Single and it's gonna be that way for now....

that's pretty much it...Just Uploading the new DrakeoVlog as I write this entry so nothing left to say but thanks to all that have supported me from this process to Love you all

Later Gaters!

-Terryman
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Time for that update:

**I apologize in advance if I offend some people with the following vent/rant
You have been warned I don't like to create enemies or trouble but I have to get some things out of my chest once in a while like all of us so again I apologize in advance for the language and way that I am writing this post and it's a long one so get something to drink,grab some doritos or a sandwich because I'm shooting from the heart with this one**

-Still at the job hunt,I never got that security job at Party City,I already sent some resumes to different people and still no feedback...I really hope I get a call from anywhere,I still don't get it it's sometimes so unfair that I want to work and nobody will hire me,but they'll give the job to either the Dominican that came from the fucking boat illegally to the island,or the ex con that was just released and has a criminal record or the dropout...or the girl who couldn't keep her legs closed and fucked up big time and has 3 kinds from 3 guys that may not or maybe the fathers and are on welfare cause they're to fucking lazy to work and provide to their kids (nothing against single mothers either so please don't take it personally not all are bad and make mistakes of not using a condom or birth control)and it's fucking frustrating..I don't have a criminal record,I graduated from High School and College (I'm not bragging about it but you know it shows that I didn't waste my whole time even though I'm not the best student in the fucking world) and I can't get a Job anywhere?? WHAT THE FUCK???? I wish I was loaded with cash I'd start my own business like either my own comic/video/figure store or my own wrestling fed..or just round up the crew from atlantic and form our own Graphic Arts/Production company where we can make art for companies or work on creating video games or animation,voice recording and shit...

not bad though right? but in order to make money you got to have money...

sad but true.

-Remember(you 'member,member?) the girl that I liked and broke my heart late last year and tried to give it a shot again..yes it happened again! she broke my heart but this time I took it very well,I didn't get mad or lost sleep I was mentally prepared for the backlash of never being able to hook up with her cause I liked her,I'll still be her friend though and try my best to be there when she needs a friend and such,she decided to be with somebody who is far away,try a long distance online relationship with somebody she met thru gaia,as long as she's happy it's cool..did it hurt getting heartbroken by the same girl again? yeah it did but I'm totally ok with it and also serves me for being stupid and hopeful again,and some of you will probably ask -and she might be reading this but it's cool- what about Mika?,she's super cool and she finally found love with somebody else,we're still great friends and talk when we can,she's doing great at her job,the guy she's with is a total gentleman with her and truly loves her despite everything she's been thru in her life,I'm totally glad she found someone to be with and I wish her the best with her new boyfriend :)

see?,good things do come for those who wait and also I don't need to repeat myself with the whole confusion,both girls that I liked are both happily with their respective boyfriends,so I will continue to walk alone for awhile and still have their frienship which is cool with me :)

-Saw Alicia last friday at borders (Easy with the "GET OVER HER!,YOU DUNCE!" Comments and read before you flame me for being retarded) and yeah I felt like an anchor was pulling me waaaaaaaaay down,because I haven't said a peep or seen her in a year since the whole break-up happened and all the emotional turmoil I went thru,and I was dead set on talking to her,even make an attempt to make peace with her and wish her the best with her Terryman-Less life and I saw her with a guy who was probably one of her friends from her new college or the new man in her life-since I've already moved on with my life and got over the whole break up stage that took me 6 months to get over her and cry and suffer what I went thru and just shake his hand and basically tell him "she's a keeper and a wonderful girl to be with" y'know be the better man and wish them nothing but the best,the minute she saw me she became completely pale and fled in horror with the guy like I was some kind of inhuman abomination and was going to grab her and abuse her in public or something...and I was left standing there with a "WTF?" face and started to lose my balance and hyperventilate that I rushed to the Border's bathroom and stayed there for like a good 15 minutes and just became an emotional wreck in the span of nothing...to be honest..I still tried my best to patch things up with her and give her the explanation of why I never awnsered her txts or calls or why we never met up at the train station close to my house and say what it had to be said for a whole year,I was hurt and angry but mostly hurt by her betrayal and also I didn't know what I would say to her and also to avoid the essential breaking down in public and causing a scene...Eventually I was going to bump into her sometime and eventually we were going to talk about it and if we were calmed enough talk about what each of us were up to and make peace and move on..I never ruled out on a reconciliation even after what happened between us but still I have that worried premonition that even if We did get back together her anal-hardcore religious nut jobs that is her parents would stop at nothing to destroy the relationship again and make both of us miserable but mostly their own daughter's life horrible and make her feel like shit when she never had a choice of her own to stand up to them and stand by me...and I couldn't let it happen again,plus her parents Like I've said before have completely and totally lost my respect as human beings and I rather avoid them in public and not cause any trouble because if they even dare to pull some kind of bullshit remark on me and putting shit on me that I was a horrible person to their daughter and caused her nothing but anguish and grief,I will shoot on them in the face not literally but verbally I will bury them alive and unmask them as the monsters that they are for causing so much angst and anguish on THEIR OWN DAUGHTER and then make me the bad guy when they were the masterminds of all the shit that happened between me and alicia,how they manipulated her and brainwashed her into breaking up with me and not having the balls to say what they had to say about me in my presence even if I was like "that's low" but at least have the fucking decency to be honest and not pull some high school bullshit of talking crap behind my back humiliating me in front of my entire family during the holidays and also use GOD as a fucking cloak for everything and being judgmental with not only me but with her and also some of her friends..what the fuck kind of attitude is that around people,Don't force your beliefs on people that don't want to,they can be respected but don't force it and also can they have a normal conversation that doesn't involve quoting the bible in I dunno EVERY FUCKING SENTENCE!!!,I believe in god and I'm catholic but I don't force my beliefs on anybody...the line has to be drawn sometime but not with these people and that's the end of that!!!!!!!

*sighs* ok now let's move on some other stuff to cover:

-Been wrestling with an ear infection for like 3 weeks now,the infection is gone but it turned out that I have both my ears swollen from the inside but mostly my Left Ear is the one giving me shooting pains and feels like it's plugged completly,I can hear but still Having a bit of problems with it I got it checked and hopefully I can hear again 100% soon

-I'm taking a Hiatus from doing the DrakeoVlogs at least until July (which coincidentally marks the 1 year anniversary of doing them and will plan to do something for the occasion) mostly because I feel burned out,running out of things and Ideas to say on the videos,I'm planing to do some collaborations with my friend Raul who also has a YouTube and does some videos of his own under "Welrod Productions",but I still am getting involved in some online activities and being part on some online shows and meeting new people thru stickam:

-The Debbie Show:
http://www.stickam.com/thedebbieshow

-SmartWrestlingFan:
http://www.stickam.com/wiggly

-Jen Williams:
http://www.stickam.com/thisisjen

-Stephie:
http://www.stickam.com/stephieluvfigous

Check them all out whenever you can all of them are awesome people!! also I've been invited to be part and do some podcasts with people that I've met thru stickam so when I get the info for them I'll let you guys know.

I have been busy lately as you can see :)

-Still not reading much comics lately but I still keep up to date with some of them mostly Captain America and Kick Ass(check it whenever you can wait for it on Trade),waiting to catch up with Sinestro Corps Vol 2 when it comes out,JLA (mostly the Brad Meltzer run) and JSA: Thy Kingdom Come when the Kingdom Come Superman comes to the regular DC Universe..FRIGGIN EPIC!

Don't ask me about either Marvel's Secret Invasion or DC's Final Crisis cause I ain't following neither,I'll wait for them on TPBs the same with World War Hulk,I do want to get Incredible Herc on trade,I love the story...so enough with the comics for now we move on with Movies:

-Iron Man fucking rocked,Speed Racer was tripping balls but was good to see,Indiana Jones & TKOCS was awesome as well,The Strangers was sooo predictable,Liv Tyler is hot but not her finest movie,I can't wait for the new Hulk Movie,Hellboy 2,Dark Knight hell even I want to check out the new Adam Sandler Comedy,which comes out this week,and because it's a Pixar Movie and looks good to check out...Wall-E,what can I say I'm still a kid at heart.

Now to the Wrestling Part of my Update (don't worry I'm almost done):

-Still checking out WWE despite being a huge pile of shit,I can't stop watching it,TNA I barely watch it anymore,but I will again thanks to the return of the World X Cup! but I still check out ROH,PWG and CHIKARA thru Youtube and soon I WILL ORDER ALL 3 NIGHTS OF THE MOST EPIC TOURNEY EVER:
KING OF TRIOS 2008!!! I saved some money to order them online,but thanks to a friend I will order them :) and when the DrakeoVlog returns I will review them and also am trying to check out the local wrestling scene here in PR,and might go to WWC's Aniversario 35 so let's see what happens..

If you haven't seen some of the DrakeoVlogs or random vids I've uploaded feel free to visit my YouTube channel:

http://youtube.com/user/calicoboricua83

that's it for now

thanks for everything peeps..

I will survive with your love as always

Peace and Keep On Rawkin'

LATER GATERS!

I'm Still ICHIBAN!!!

-Terryman
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Hate being sick sometimes:

I couldn't go anywhere except on thursday,went to see Iron Man and Friggin loved it,BEST MARVEL MOVIE EVER!
if you haven't seen it go now!


Tonight,I was supposed to go with the guys to the pizzoton for Luiyo's Farewell Party,because on monday he leaves for Boston to start a new life..,Like I posted before in the past entries and so forth (some of you will fell the same way) when someone you know if it's a colleague or a good friend goes away be it for a few months or forever...you feel a sadness that you might never see this person again...but it's really a mixed feeling cause you don't want to see him or her leave but at the same time you wish him or her well.

I've seen so many good friends and colleagues go away,some have come back others just left and never looked back,Don't get me wrong,I'm not saying anything bad about them and I can't say anything to make them stay...most have gotten opportunities that they might have never gotten here in PR,and most have had to make the sacrifices to leave their families and friends and their lives here behind to go elsewhere and start new or start over and make it,I sometimes miss them and those who I know that are about to take the plunge of leaving the island I'll miss them,and I often wonder "should I do the same and leave this place" like I stated before if I had the money I would...but then I dunno what I'd do,sure I can defend myself with the language being bilingual but then there's the struggle to make it at least in something or building your life,but hey such is life you know..you never know what might happen...and with the crazy shit going on here in PR they are lucky that they are not there to witness this fucking country going down in flames..but for the moment..

Nevermind what I'm saying,sometimes I dunno what I'm saying half the time anymore,just ramble on and on...

take care...

Luiyo if somehow you're reading this,I'm really sorry I couldn't go and say my goodbyes to you,you've been a hell of a friend to me these past years,we had a shitload of fun,had a good run together,everytime we were there with the guys watching the PPVs,laughing and joking having a good time,then going to the diffrent WWE tours and also the TNA show at the choliseo,I was there when you proposed to your girl Amanda and I know that you 2 will be together forever and live happily in B-Town,The PPVs at Buffalo Wings are not going to be the same without you,give em hell in Boston take care and we'll see each other again.

Later Gaters

Much Love

-Terryman
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Today was awesome Despite the constant raining.....

-Went to my first Kaisen,had a blast and met up with a tons of friends,and also met up with Frances :) saw some very awesome Cosplays From Optimus Prime,G.I.Joe,Char's Zaku and a few more...it started slow and got huge..hell even Tom Beland came to the con even Kenshiro too,it was awesome,I snaged some cool stuff from Iron Man promotional poster and some stickers also a new gun which I will use for my Cosplay in the DCC Comic Con in June...and a Crimson Guard from the new 25th anniversary GI Joe collection :)

-Then went to pick up Juanyo and then headed to Arnaldo's house(I was with Arnaldo at Kaisen) played some KOF and also saw the Condemed 2 and MGS 4 Demo on his PS3..as we got ready to head to buffalo wings to watch Backlash,then he dropped me home and then left...

I had fun,and I needed it after what I've been thru these past couple of weeks,

I'm posting the pics as we speak on the Drakeospace :D

take care my peeps

and also

JOHN CENA LOST AND TRIPLE H IS THE CHAMP FOR THE 12TH TIME!!

THERE IS A GOD!!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!

HAHAHA

later gaters:

-Terryman
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it's 5 am...or 6 am I dunno really....

I can't sleep.....

I got so many thoughts running through my mind lately...I feel kinda torn and also confused ..I can't really describe it it....I've been single for almost a year,I didn't date anyone until like the beginning of this year,and it's going alright I'm taking things slow,I'm in no rush to go into a relationship,and mostly we're going out as friends and we have a good time together.

-now comes the hard part-

we like each other but we both know that we're not looking for a relationships cause of a few circumstances(some that I will not mention because some things are just left unsaid and also that she has been totally sincere and open about the circumstance that has been with her for awhile-no it's not that she has a kid or that she is a trannie or nothing of the sort so stop thinking ahead-and I truly admire and appreciate her for being honest with me about the whole thing)and we've talked about it a few times already and the only option we have is that we should stay as friends,we both felt the same way but at the same time it hurts us both to take that decision and I have been honest and open with her all this time that we've been seeing each other..and if it weren't for that "circumstance" we might even go on to be more than friends.but "circumstance" or not it doesn't mean that I'll stop talking to her or ignore her about it,we'll still hang out when we can and I still want to be her friend and help in what I can with her,I may not be wealthy or anything but I am rich and always have been rich at heart.

(and I hope she is reading this because I can't find the words to really say what the rest of this will say and that she doesn't feel bad or depressed about it,the last thing I would want is that she would be hurt emotionally and that if we were to be more than friends and deal with the "circumstance" that we both end up with a burden and she would feel guilty about it and have random people call her things that she is not because of a situation that happened to her years ago that wasn't her fault and she's being a strong woman to this day and I care about her a lot and totally admire her for that I wish most women and men would be like her.)

We both tried many ways to think about things between us but that "circumstance" won't let us...and it hurts,and it's too risky for the both of us,and I have a fear about it,but not the type of fear of like running away screaming like in the movies or something,but the fear and the burden we both have to carry about it.. ;__;

Recently I was talking to a girl that I know and -this girl is part of my little heart dillema- we haven't talked in a bit and she was telling me about her current relationship and that she wanted out but didn't know how to break up with the guy she's with.That the guy was way too clingy,and way too emo and way too stupid to even have an intelligent conversation,basically I was blunt with her and told her -I shit you not these were my exact words- "Hell,I could have told you,that!" we burst out laughing but mostly I was like basking in this because I knew from the start that the guy wasn't right for her,and was still very honest with her and that I still had feelings for her and basically told her that,and she was just asking me many things about it like most importantly "why didn't you say anything?" and I was still in blunt-hate-to-say-I-told-you-so mode but still truthful by saying to her "I never said anything and I should have said but I didn't because I wanted you to be happy,all I cared is that you were happy and you were smitten with him so I backed off and there were times that I got jealous but still I wanted you to be happy because I was starting to really like you but then he showed up so who was I to get in the way of your happiness? nobody just myself" she broke my heart and made me almost break my hand but I still had feelings-and still have- for her and that's what I did (I know I'm a BIG ASS DOPE FOR IT!! christ...Pat Benatar was right..Love IS a battlefield)

so what do I do now? where do I go from here?

I honestly don't know...and I really don't have the awnser for it..

I wish love wouldn't be so damn complicated...

thanks for taking the time to read this people!

(please don't hate me for what I wrote...or for anything)

-Terryman
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**Anyone offended by the use of harsh language or feel that I've insulted you or anyone else in any way I apologize in advance and also don't take it personally,I'm just getting some stuff off my chest*

where to start?

It's kinda funny that I sometimes say many stuff about emos using their Myspaces or LJs to write how much they hate their lives,when I am a blogger/Vlogger talk about Ironic but when I do Blog or write something is either in a message board something about things I like or etc..but hey it's sometimes a good alternative to let your feelings out better than to punch a cement pillar at a mall because you got your heartbroken for like the 8th time(yeah but my hand is doing much better and it was like 4 months ago) we all blog about many things: like the countless movies you like and hate,when you found the girl of your dreams,your goals for the year or future,your appreciation for life and your many true friends,when you meet a celebrity or when you just can friggn wait for an event be it a comic convention or a concert from your favorite band or a pro wrestling event... or when shit in your life starts to rain like you had a horrible break-up,someone close to you died,or you're contemplating suicide.Anyway enough about the magic of Blogging..

we've all been at this point in our lives before,you sit down and contemplate about what you have accomplished so far and what you wish to accomplish and also that you sometimes feel the pressure that most people see you like either going to be "the shit" when deep down you know that you're not the shit and that you don't want to be regarded like that,that you just want to do your best and keep on living your life,and there's nothing wrong to not aspire to epic greatness..because there is no such thing as perfection,Perfection is complete and utter Bullshit,you can be good,great,excellent but never perfect.

I've been at a crossroads on and off again for awhile now...and plenty of emotions boiling over from frustration,anger plenty of it,because plenty of people expect me to be so great (mostly my parents) and it's just endless squabble and just arguing  and I'm like I've sacrificed my dreams and ambitions for them can't they be grateful that I'm not in any trouble with the law or have any drug problem and that they raised me right?without any solution and frankly I'm tired of it.I know that I'll do something wonderful and great with my life but I still don't know what that "something" is,plus I still have that fear mostly the fear of failure,I'm at a point where I don't know what else to do...I don't want to study anymore,I just want to find a job,and I've been searching and leaving resumes literally everywhere even sending resumes and filling up applications to places I already applied in the past.I don't want to feel and get desperate again like I was last december(BTW I was where I worked the other day and they still treated me alright so there is and never was a hate with them)then also I look around me and most people that I know are all contemplating(even myself and even my older bro) of leaving Puerto Rico and going either to the states or someplace else to find a job and maybe even a better life...and if I really had the money I'd probably do that,then again I would be sacrificing so much of what I already sacrificed,and also leave behind:

-My family -

Though sometimes are a pain in the ass and have been not all of them are like that and I thank them for Their sacrifices and at most times they didn't have to but they did because they care.To be frank I trust most of my friends more than my actual family,but in no what it means that I hate my family,I may hate some of the things they have done but they are still my flesh and blood,the blood,tears and sweat I shed are theirs as well..

-My Friends-

I treasure them all like I have never treasured any person because they have all shown me that they do care and accept me for who I am and that I'm glad that I could be there for them when I can and even though I have my days where I'm fucked up,I do my damndest to cheer them up when they are down,when I smile or even try to when deep down I lose mine on to many occasions,I can make them smile and feel much better and also that they've shown me sides that most other people not even their families see very often,I sometimes feel that I'm worthy of being their friend,but I love them like brothers and sisters I never had.and for them I'd gladly take a bullet for them,I would go to the dephs of hell and fight the devil and pump their hearts with my blood.as I write this tears are coming down because they mean so much to me.Alberto,Juanqui,Kenshiro,Juanyo,Jean Paul,Abraham,Arnaldo,Bori,Jessy,Chuito,Gabo and everyone else who's life I've touched and done so much better than myself,I mean it from the bottom of my heart I love you all and if something would ever to happen to me,I want you all to know that I love you all and that I loved every second I spent with you guys,from good times and bad,Triumph and Tragedy,Thick and Thin I love you all...and if these are my last words then so be it.

By now you might think that none of what I’m writing make any sense,but it will...also that I’m writing this because I’d be really bullshitting that everything in my life now is so awesome,well I’m alive and that’s what matters so that’s good,right? and that this year I turn 25....and I really got to pick up the pace of what I want do with my life...time is slowly running out

Some of the random people who lurk at various LJs or Myspace Blogs will mock these type of posts,I really don't give a damn if they do or not,I just write what comes from my heart,about what's going on...don't carry the weight thanks for the lift but this is one weight I have to carry on my own...but your love is always apreciated ;)

take care guys and if you do have a dream don't kill it,Go for it!

-Terryman
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Yep..Time for that good ol' update:

-Jury Duty's a big pain in the ass,last Friday was the straw that broke the camel's back,I was held hostage in a way for 14 and a half hours because they couldn't make up their minds with the jury selection,plus I had to go to 2 different federal buildings in the same day (hence the combined 14 hours) first at Old San Juan from 8am till Noon only to select 7 Jurors and the rest were all sent to Hato Rey because there were missing a panel and we were chosen to fill up those spots so imagine like 60+ people plus the hundred more in the other building literally racing the clock to beat the 1pm deadline,instead of them telling those who weren't picked to come back on Monday they just scoffed and said "it's today,bitches so tough shit We're The US Government for the commonwealth of Puerto Rico DO AS WE SAY!!"(fucking power hungry assholes) so I hitched a ride with one of the panel members and rushed to Hato Rey in time,only to have us shuffling to courtroom to courtroom and have us like hostages for 2 and a half hours waiting,and we were all very tired cause most of the people what were summoned had to wake up like around 3 am to 5:30 am to get to San Juan and be on time because most of the jurors there live in different towns across the island,the upside to this gigantic clusterfuck of retardation of our rights as citizens is that we all get paid (and hopefully we all get paid double!!! AND THEY BETTER DO IT!)and this shit won't end until I fuffil 30 days (I still have 25 days left counting tomorrow but every time they cancel it becomes like an eternity..)
and I'm also afraid that they might pull the same shit they did on friday again...what would I give to be fucking loaded with cash and leave this clusterfuck of a country and go someplace else like Canada...but for now I'm stuck in this island of misfits (not all of them are misfits there's still some good people left but mostly are leaving the island and going to the US and I'm starting to get tempted to do the same)

-Been watching a lot of movies lately: Rambo (twice),There Will Be Blood(awesomely good if Daniel Day Lewis doesn't win the oscar it would be a travesty because his performance was epic)Sweeney Todd (who knew that Johnny Depp can sing very well..amazing).

-Also listening to some albums that I haven't heard in ages like my favorate System Of A Down Album TOXICITY (BEST SOAD ALBUM EVER IMO!) and Godsmack's "Other Side" Acoustic Album which is very good and also hearing some recent stuff like Serj Tankian's Solo Album which is very decent..and random Indian songs (Don't ask why really)

-Valentine's Day is almost upon us...this would be the first V-Day alone in a long time..but I don't mind it anymore maybe I can change that soon also that I've been seeing someone lately,she's an awesome person (she'll probably would be reading this) and I dig her a lot,she's unique,intellectual,truly an awesome person to be around...*blushes a bit* and I'm starting to like her a lot..but there's that fear that most persons have when they want to start over "will history repeat itself again?" "I don't want to fuck this up again"
I do like her and right now I'm doing my damnedest to get my shit together..in a way being with her is slowly helping me to regain that twinkle in my eye,the smile I lose often...(ok I'll stop it but come on I've been single for 9 months so it's time to give love another shot!)I really do like her..and I really hope everything goes well..

and to close I leave you with this to fill in if you want to(got it from Yans!)

Take care my peeps

-Terryman

01) Are you currently in a serious relationship?
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02) What was your dream growing up?
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03) What talent do you wish you had?
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04) If I bought you a drink what would it be?
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05) Favorite vegetable?
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06) What was the last book you read?
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07) What zodiac sign are you?
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8) Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
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9) Worst Habit?
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10) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride?
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11) What is your favorite sport?
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12) Do you have a Negative or Optimistic attitude?
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13) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
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14) Worst thing to ever happen to you?
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15) Tell me one weird fact about you.
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16) Do you have any pets?
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17) What if i showed up at your house unexpectedly?
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18) What was your first impression of me? (hmmm...careful!)
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19) Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
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20) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
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21) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
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22) What color eyes do you have?
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23) Ever been arrested?
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24) Bottle or can soda?
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25) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
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27) What's your favorite place to hang at?
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28) Do you believe in ghosts?
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29) Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
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30) Do you swear a lot?
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31) Biggest pet peeve?
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32) In one word, how would you describe yourself?
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33) Do you believe/appreciate romance?
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35) Do you believe in God?
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36) Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
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Which God or Goddess are you like?
Your Result: The Christian God
 

You are the Holy Lord. You are the shepherd and those that follow you are your lambs. You are kind and patient, but when need be, you are vile and creul. You are often asked for advise or wisdom, and you willingly give it. Congratulations!! You are God!!

God Zeus
 
Goddess Sekhemet
 
Budha
 
Jesus
 
Goddess Bast
 
Satan
 
You are your own God or Goddess
 
Which God or Goddess are you like?
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FUCK YOU JOHN CENA YOU FUCKING WIGGER PIECE OF MONKEY CRAP!

JUST FUCKING DIE ALLREADY YOU WASTE OF SPERM YOU ARE A CANCER TO THE SPORT OF PRO WRESTLING!!

THERE GOES A POSSIBLE GOOD YEAR IN WRESTLING WITHOUT YOU!

FUCK THIS SHIT!

-Terryman


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It's that time again..so what have I've been up to so far:

-well during the holidays I got canned at my workplace because of a big fuck up by the manager and not the boss(and I will explain why)I recieved my first paycheck from Nathan's and exciting as it was there was a tiny bit of a problem with it..I got paid less then what I was supposed to...so I showed my folks my achievement of busting my ass for a check,they were proud but then they looked at the money I made and they were like "something's not right here.." so we tally up the hours that I've worked and also calculate the hours plus the money I was earing by the hour (minimum wage here in puerto rico as of recently is $5.85 an hour plus commision of the sales) and when it was tallied I was supposed to be paid more...I got paid $105.30 when I was supposed to be paid close to 300 bucks...so I go to work as always and I called my manager (which I've learned a valiable lesson when it comes to paycheck issues: NEVER CALL THE MANAGER ABOUT IT..UNLESS THE MANAGER IN QUESTION HAS ENOUGH EXPIRIENCE TO HANDLE SITUATIONS LIKE THESE AND REPORT TO THE BOSS/OWNER) and I asked him if it was posible to schedule a tiny meeting between him,myself and the owner... and to this day I dunno what really happened but he sort of freaked out about it cause I could hear him stammer a bit,I didn't threat him or anything I simply asked what was going on,cause something wasen't right...so he gave me a day off and when I was going to call him to know at what time I was going to come in if I had the night shift or day shift..I kept calling him non-stop for days and never returned my calls..so I figure that I've been fired but I never got a reason why..I was left hanging in the air..I did get pissed but then I calmed down and since I was "terminated without any reason" I went job hunting again but still wanted to settle the incident without any trouble,I just wanted to know what was going on and get the money they owed me and that's it..no fuss no muss..so I spent the last 2 weeks of 2007 and the begining of 2008 solving this..I sent a letter to the company and the owner about what happened with the shifts I worked untill the last day and the total of money the company owed me..he called me personaly asking me what the hell happened so I told him everything so we scheduled a meeting with him and the manager,we solved the problem without any hustle or anything but I was sweating bullets like hell cause I was scared that he was going to think this is a rib or something that I was scamming him for some cash...and it wasen't a rib,I wasen't making a scam or anything I wanted to know what was going on,why were my calls never returned and also that in fact they did owed me the money and they payed me..so the problem was solved without any trouble whatsoever...as for my status...well they stopped calling right? so I don't work there anymore as of now but I did leave with open doors,so if I decide to come back there,I still have a place there..plus the owner is indeed a man of his word,and is pro-employee so he is ok in my book..

so that's pretty much the job situation in a nutshell....the important thing is that it was solved and got paid the money I was owed..

moving on to some positive things:

-Been playing all the guitar hero games and as well as a bit of Fire Pro Wrestling Returns and back to my fighter's roots with King Of Fighters XII,Fatal Fury/Art Of Fighting Archives and NeoGeo Battle Coliseum...

-My new Ice Cream Flavor is Stephen Colbert's Americone Dream...SWEET JESUS THAT IS THE MOST EPIC FLAVOR I'VE EVER TRIED!!!!

-Still single and I intent to keep it that way for now....and also while I'm jobless at the moment went back to work with my brother at his tripleta stand where I was last weekend and I'll be back this weekend to help him out and also to see the Trinidad/Jones Jr Fight at a neighbour's house...

-and also Still having Jury Duty...so in a way Jury Duty kinda fucks me over with jobs,but hey at least I get my $50 bucks everytime I go there...(it is $40 plus 4.5 cents by the distance)

-Got some awesome stuff planned for the drakeovlog including a very important big interview...details in here or myspace or in future installments of the drakeovlog


so that's about it hope the holidays were good to you and so far 2008 has been ok...let's hope it really stays this way...

later,gaters ;)

-Terryman
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Yep FINALLY 2007 is gone!

-I had a craptacular New Year's Eve party as always,I should have hitched a ride with beto and had a blast...I really should start planing as of now to find a way to have a rockin new year's eve.

I know it's too damn early to do so but last night had me thinking that my family's traditional holiday parties be it Dia De Reyes,Mother's,Father's,Easter/Spring Break,Thanksgiving,X-mas and New Year's Eve really either needs a very swift,stiff kick in the nuts to get at least entretaining or just stop celebrating and call up my friends and have a get together someplace and just kick it!


it's allready the new year and so far though it's only been a day,it's ok let just hope the rest of the year is like this...

Later Gaters!

-Terryman
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